Spiritual Lunchtime Musings
Last night I attended a Lunar Eclipse ritual. This isn’t anything new- I’ve been a practicing witch for a few years now, and there’s honestly nothing like the feeling of successful group workings. It just hits different somehow. I’d felt really called since the end of last week to attend- I kind of wanted to attend the Lunar Faire one in person on Monday as well, but kind of chickened out on just showing up.
Ritual was great- there were a whole bunch of new faces, and some old ones I haven’t seen in a bit. I can’t accurately explain the joy I feel whenever I attend these, but it’s so fulfilling in multiple ways. We did a cord cutting because of the lunar eclipse- which was good because I was planning to do one anyway last night, so this filled that in a very satisfying way.
When we went into meditation… I don’t know if it was the need I felt to be there, my “higher self” charm that I was wearing doing it’s work, or what but I slid into it so fast. In the past I’ve had difficulty with meditations- I’d either feel kind of disconnected, or I’d come out of it with zero recollection of what happened (no, I didn’t fall asleep). This felt easy last night.
One of the things I picked up on while we were in meditation- and maybe shortly before we went into it too- was something was there. I’m a bit clairsentient, so I definitely pick up on energies (I feel them physically on my skin and through my body usually, if that makes sense), and I DEFINITELY felt something. I wasn’t sure at the time if it was something that normally existed in the space, or if it was something either drawn to or tagging along with me. All I can tell you is I felt that in my crown chakra, which feels crazy but there’s no other way I can adequately explain it. It didn’t feel negative, but it felt… very high vibe.
Was it a guide? Was it someone on my “spirit team” (I’m assuming I have one, I could be wrong)? Was it something else? I have no idea. But there was something there for sure, and I had it confirmed for me after ritual concluded. I want to do a bit of deep diving and work to see if I can connect with it again, but that’s a project for a different time right now.
So last night after ritual, when I’d gotten home I felt good. I was still buzzing high when we concluded, and needed my friend (the facilitator) come and ground me. I can’t remember the last time I felt like that, honestly. I know the cords I cut last night were heavy ones (and those things are not finished by any means, I still have a lot of “mundane” work to do to process them, and it’s not gonna be easy). But still, I felt really good. I woke up this morning feeling… less so. There was a sense of loss that feels misplaced and unsettled, and it’s definitely set me a bit off-kilter for the day.
When I come into the office (and when I wake up on the weekends), I pull from an oracle deck and ask, “What do I need today?” The deck I’ve been using is almost uncannily in-tune with me, and just about every card I’ve pulled has resonated in ways that make total sense for me at that time.
So today I do the same routine, and pull the “prosperity” card. I gave it a side eye, and then read up on it in the coordinating book. The design on the card incorporated both a dragonfly and a key. When I realized that I paused.
There aren’t a ton of times when I’ve felt like the divine has literally reached out to me somehow. I can think of two instance in particular, and that’s it. This however… this was one of those moments. Keys are a symbol intrinsic to Hecate (one of the deities I work with). The dragonfly… that’s related to a goddess that more and more I’m noticing I have deep ties and synchronicities with- Etain (in her myth, she was transformed into a “fly”, Some sources call it a butterfly- which is also a symbol that hits with me as well. Other sources call it a dragonfly). The description of the card was very positive and was more about welcoming in new things. Rather coincidental when I literally cleared old things out last night, and was feeling a bit off about it. It immediately hit with me like a gentle head pat from both goddesses- one dark and one light- as if to reassure me that yes, I am on the right path. It was oddly and incredibly comforting.
I don’t usually go into this stuff with other folks because sometimes I feel a little crazy when the words leave my mouth, but this just felt too pointed today to ignore. I’ll probably discuss it with my friend later this evening when we’re at the gym, but I don’t know… I felt like I needed to share this one.